I will be the first to admit that 2011 was a fairly difficult year for me. As Lira said during one of her many, many pep talks, "2011 is your J.K. Rowling year! It's the year you hit rock bottom so that you can once again build your foundation!" Thanks Lira! Please don't become a motivational speaker!
The bad part about hitting rock bottom is a) it's never really rock bottom, so you're painfully aware that while it feels like you have lost everything, you have so much more that you could lose, and b) just like jumping off a bridge or out of a plane, it's the landing that kills you. It's the staying down, with zero energy to get back up and pick the grass out of your teeth, that is the hardest part. So we'll say that 2011 is the year I worked on my bounce, shall we?
I learned to bounce back, and roll with it, and flip the switch that says, NO. This isn't going to ruin my whole day/week/month. And for that... for that I give myself kudos. It's a muscle, that voice that says "I can still turn this around," and it needs to be exercised. Hourly. Like a chihuahua with a reeeeeeallly small bladder. Because the last two months of 2011 were some of the best I've ever had in my life. And if I'd given up on 2011... if I'd walked away or thought there goes the entire year I would have missed out on some pretty great stuff.
To sum it all up:
1) I got some stuff off my chest.
2) I got two raises in a week (right after some major car problems that sucked mightily).
3) I drowned you guys in more poetry (not that you complained).
4) I called a religious idiot out for predicting the end of the world.
5) I successfully raised the funds for a season 2 of my web-series, booked a role in an indie feature, and got some new headshots taken
6) I hit rock bottom with my car and my career
7) I sucked it up and bought a new car (see: aforementioned rock bottom-hitting)
8) I had a crazy summer of bbq's, baseball games, San Diego Comic Con, and camping at Yosemite.
9) I learned to let it go, shake it out, bounce back, and turn the year around.
10) and then in the last two months of 2011, I got engaged, booked a national commercial, booked a print (modeling) job, debuted an independent horror film that got almost 3 million views online, started shooting my web-series, and got a theatrical agent. Oh, and I also threw up a lot. But so did Benni so let's not hear any pregnancy whispers, shall we? (Eric, I'm looking at YOU.)
Want to know what 2012 has in store for me? Yeah, me too. Hopefully this year will be even more kick ass!
And involve a lot less vomit.
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